Life and Times of a Mommy(:

Some Background

Here is some background on my faith. Just a quick thing before we start the fasting.

I went to church with my mom and dad when I was small. After a while my mom didn’t want to go anymore so we stopped going. My uncle invited us to go to his church. So we went without my mom most times. My faith was strong until I experienced the first death of a family member when I was 9 or 10. Family is a major part of my life so when my great grandmother died I was devastated. Six months later my other great grandmother died. THe following Valentines day my great grandfather died. When I was 13 I had to put my great grandfather’s dog down, a dog that  I had grown up with and was the last thing I had connecting me to my great grandfather. The year before that my cousin, who was 8 at the time, was diagnosed with a rare form of childhood cancer. He went into remission for a little while but it came back and he was readmitted to the hospital. (He is now in remission and doing just fine.)

At that point, I wondered what God would put someone that young through cancer and through as much pain as I had went through. Then when I was 13, the marriage I thought was unbreakable imploded before my eyes. My parents legally separated in December of 2007. The next February, their divorce was final. After that my mother married someone not so great. After multiple fights, some horrible name calling and insults, a busted vein and a permanent scar, my mother took me away from everything I knew. She took me to a town three hours away. While there I fell in with the wrong crowd, almost dropped out of school, and gave up my dream.

I couldn’t figure out what kinds of God would let me go through all that pain, all that trouble and not save me from hurting myself and ruining my life.

My step mom’s dad was a Southern Nazarene pastor. She grew up as a God-fearing child and went to church every Sunday. She continued this throughout her life. Today, she still goes most every Sunday. She got my dad back into church and eve though I didn’t want to go I went too.

The summer of 2009, I told a friend of mine that I didn’t believe. He put God in terms taht I could relate with and understand. He put it to me like this: “How do you explain watching the wind blow through a field of uncut hay? How do you explain the feeling of a horse moving underneath you as you are thundering across an open field? How do you explain the beauty and majesty of watching a horse play in a field and to see their muscles ripple beneath their skin?” That night I asked God to come into my heart and save me.

The following summer I met a guy that my world would revolve around after just a few months. He dumped me and I begged God to give him back to me. Instead he blessed me with a beautiful baby boy.

Through countless trials and tribulations that faced me I knew God was with me every time I looked into that little boys face. After a year of being a single mom, I met my best friend and husband. We have our ups and downs but I know as long as God has a place in our home and relationship, we will make it through anything.

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Starting January 6, 2013

Starting sundown on Sunday, January 6, 2013, I will be starting a series on this blog. It will be a 21 day fast where I will give up all social networking, web browsing, computers etc. from 5 pm until 8 pm. I will spend the time with my family and praying. I will be praying for four things:

  1. My family
  2. My future
  3. A friend
  4. Our nation

This will end at sundown on Sunday, January 27, 2013. On the four Sundays I will also post notes from my church service and Sunday school class. The notes will be posted separately because they will most likely be on two different subjects. If not then the notes will be posted together in the same post. I will document mine and my families journey through this interesting time. Part of this will be an attempt, and hopefully a success, to fix some major problems my husband and I are having. Another part will be an effort to spend more time as a family and not be glued to electronics when we should be spending time with each other.  I will also post my readings and personal study along with my notes. This will help me keep track of what’s going on along with sharing my story with people and hopefully bringing some one closer to God.

Thank you for reading and following I hope you enjoy (:

Note: This was planned by my church before the shooting happened in CT. These people will be in my prayers during this time. They are in my prayers now, but I will be praying harder for the healing of their families.

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