TheLifeandTimesofaMom

Life and Times of a Mommy(:

Day Quatre!

Guys!! Has anyone noticed that I’m a day off as far as days? Today is the fifth and we are on truth number four… It confused me! Any one else?! No? ….alrighty then! Moving on…

Day Quatre! (That‘s day four to those who don’t speak french!)

Today’s truth is another rough one. Today’s is something I have to forgive someone for. This is another one that I have to think about. Like I said yesterday, I don’t like to have regrets in life. I don’t like to look back and think, Wow, I wish I could have done that different. And besides aren’t we supposed to forgive everyone that has wronged us? So I guess when it comes to this one, I need to forgive my mom.

We have had a rough relationship through the years. It probably started at 13. I mean, this was the time were rebellion really starts right? Well, it got preeetty crazy. When I told you guys about my house burning down, I told you a little about what happened. My mom cheated on my dad and they got divorced. Well after the move my mom remarried. He was a total jerk face, to put it nicely, so we left and moved to Little Rock. I resented her for moving away form my friends and away from my dad. I also resented her for ripping my family apart. Years have gone by, and our relationship continually got worse. Almost a year ago we stopped talking completely. I asked her to not contact me unless it was an emergency.

About six months later, we had a discussion in mine and my husband’s Sunday school class. Our leader told us that if we randomly thought of someone, just out of a blue, to pray for them. God had put their name on our heart for a reason. So, that’s what I did. I also slowly started trying to fix the relationship between her and I. Recently, we saw each other for the first time in almost two years (because she lived across the country).

So. There’s my truth for the day. Now time to go find something yummy and delicious and sweet!! (: Night guys!!

Finding this picture made me want a cupcake SO bad!!! And I wish my cupcakes could look this good!!!

Finding this picture made me want a cupcake SO bad!!! And I wish my cupcakes could look this good!!!

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Day 3

Day Three.

Today is our first rough day guys. Today’s truth is something you have to forgive yourself for. This one is a rough one. I try not to regret anything or have to forgive myself anything because everything has made me the person I am today. Everything has strengthened me to be the mom, wife, sister, daughter, sister- and daughter I am today.

This is Old Main. It's the oldest building on campus. It still has classes in it but not many. This is also the most famous building on campus.

This is Old Main. It’s the oldest building on campus. It still has classes in it but not many. This is also the most famous building on campus.

The only thing I need to forgive myself for is not finishing school. I was going to the University of Arkansas right after high school. I was a pre-vet major with a minor in equine (horse) science. I would have gone to school in state for four years. I would then have to go out of state for another four years to finish my degree. The starting annual salary for a veterinary, not specialized, is $30,000. As a single mom, that was the best thing I could ask for. But, second semester of school, I lost my enthusiasm. I didn’t get to be a normal college student. I had a baby to take care of, meaning I couldn’t go out every night, I couldn’t go party with my friends, I couldn’t do anything that I wanted to do. So, I just didn’t get up for class. I got up and took my baby to take care and then went back home and went back to bed. If I had gone to class like I was supposed to, I would be doing finals in my junior year. I would be graduating next May from my first four years of school.

I need to forgive myself for giving up. I need to smack myself in the face and say get over it. I need to put on my big girl panties and just get over it. I can’t change the past now, all I can do is work to better my future. The best laid plans can be ruined. That’s just a fact of life. I have had plans to go back to school to get different degrees and to just get my basics out of the way. But to go to school you have to have money. To have money, you have to have a job. Being a stay at home mom doesn’t get you any money. So, it’s just a matter of figuring out another alternative.

 

So guys, have you gone to school for anything? How did it go?

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